It really has been too long...

But this bad bitch is back in full force!

Hello, my sweet nothings! How are all of you maggots doing? Oh, that's right... I don't care.

Lately I have been so busy traveling all over the world looking for a new place to terrorize, I haven't had the chance to actually see anybody. But, of course, I've had the chance to eat those skinny runway bitches and steal their amazing outfits. I mean, someone's got to wear them (and look better), am I right? I am. You should see the fantastic shit I've accumulated recently. Actually, I'm quite sure many of you have seen me; unspeakable beauty, wind blown chocolate brown locks, fabulous pumps, always sporting my shades. I'm the hottest bitch on the block. I mean, Thanh is a close second, but not close enough to consider her an enemy. Which is why, of course, she has a smidgen of my love.

Ah, yes, the L-word. Believe me, I still do not use it in everyday conversation. In fact, I haven't said it out loud since I last saw Daemien, which was long ago. I suppose all we had is gone now. I don't mind much, I've kept myself occupied with other meaningless men. I don't plan on letting myself get that involved with someone ever again. Yeah, sure, it was nice for a minute or so, but then I felt myself losing... me. Being in love is something that I think is now so vile and torturous. I have never felt so stupid in my life, and I still can't believe that I made the choice to actually let my feelings take over.

But, gross, enough about that shit. I need to go quench my thirst. Ciao!

Almost Dead

Don't you just love when you come close to perishing forever? It's a great fucking time, wouldn't you agree? I don't even remember how it happened. I went on a trip to New Jersey (don't ask) with Dae because he asked me to accompany him. Long story short, the States got boring, fast. What a surprise... After blowing a couple of credit cards in New York City, I decided it was time to move on. Yup, that's why I decided to leave. It's not like Daemien came dangerously close to killing me with his bare hands or anything like that... Nope. (Fucker)

Anyways, I made it to Barcelona and met up with Thanh and her sister, Mai. I took her for her first hunt in the city and she had a bitch fit because we had to kill a little girl. It had to be done, though... She saw Mai going ape shit on some guy's ass. Whatever. She'll learn how to put those feelings aside and just eat. Unless she plans on becoming a VETA.... Gag.

In other news...
Don't you hate it when people sit around, bummed out, because of some guy? This is why I don't do relationships. I don't want someone telling me that I'm not good enough, or that they don't love me anymore. I don't get involved with that shit. Thanh, on the other hand, made that mistake. She cheated on Felix and now he's being a dick about it. She's a mess. Well, she was. Mai and I helped her out. At least, her appearance. I can tell she's still upset, though. I don't know how much longer I can be around her before I just kill this entire city.

This is why I don't allow my emotions to escape my mind. This is why I refuse to think about my old life. I'm beyond sick of my own brain lately. Care to lend me yours? Ugh. It's been so long since I've allowed myself to feel such deep emotions. Decades. It was a rare occasion that I allowed my family to fuck with my emotions. I guess I've always been adding to the wall that I built as a human; the wall that continually blocks myself off from emotion.

I left New York City a short while ago, ready to embark on a new adventure. After hours of not paying attention to the road, I passed a sign for none other than Georgia - the place I grew up. I suppose I shouldn't call it my homestate, for it never really felt like home to me. But there I was. I felt mesmerized by my surroundings. I knew I'd regret going to my old town, but I needed to. I figured it might be like therapy for me. I haven't been back since I started my new life.

I didn't know what to expect when I drove down the empty, overgrown road. Maybe they would be there, maybe they wouldn't. I pulled into the driveway and just sat there, and of course I was freaking out on the inside. When I walked inside, it was almost like nothing had changed. I mean, everything imaginable had changed, but the house still looked the same. My parents left most of the furniture there when they left, I suppose. Who knows where they went. Anyways, when I walked up the stairs and into my old room, I just brokedown. I sat on my old bed wishing I could actually cry for once. I don't know what happened, but it sucked. I haven't felt emotions like that since... ever. Well, whatever. Enough of this complaining. It's not like it ever gets you anywhere. I'm putting my wall back up and I don't intend on letting myself slip again.

Shocking

As I sit here in my hotel room writing this, I am surrounded by burned out candles and freaking roses. I guess I should start from the beginning so you all have a clue as to what I'm talking about.

Thanh knew I was in causing trouble in Tokyo and decided to come visit me for a little bit. It's never boring with Thanh. Thank god for that girl! We walked around the city, shopping and taking in all the sights. We were running out of things to do, so she suggested we go check out the Imperial Palace. We saw two guards standing outside and took them both out. We snuck into the palace because Thanh was convinced they were hiding something. Upon opening the first door, all we saw was cleaning supplies. We hit gold after opening the second door. Freaking electric chairs! We couldn't believe it. We started messing around with the switches to see what would happen. I decided I wanted to give it a whirl. After we sort of figured out which buttons did what, I sat down on a chair, ready to face whatever would happen. Thanh started out on the lowest switch and ended on the second to last one. Let's just say... I sure as hell felt it. Of all the crazy shit I've done, this definitely makes the Top 10. It started out kind of cool as I felt a buzz run through my entire body. By the end, man, it got to me. Shit actually hurt! She filmed everything with her cell phone and sent it to Marek, who loves doing shit like this I guess. With all of the excitement, Thanh and I completely lost track of time. We had to steal a bike and speed over to the airport so she would catch her flight. As I left the airport, I noticed how insanely thirsty I was. I caught a tasty meal before heading back to my hotel.

As soon as I got into the elevator of the hotel, I could smell him. The scent was faint, but definitely there. I knew it couldn't have been that strong from the last time he came over, so I thought he was in my room for some reason. I pushed open the door and just froze. There were candles everywhere, accompanied by roses. I looked around my entire suite to find him. I was sure he was there. Instead, I found a note on the table that read "sorry shit happened i'll talk to you later hope you enjoy." Regardless of the fact that he left before I got there, that's the nicest thing anyone has done for me in such a long time. He hasn't texted me back yet, but I feel like I should apologize for being a stubborn ass before. I never apologize... I really think that electric chair fucked with my brain. Should be interesting.

Caution:

It's highly likely that we will break ever piece of furniture in the room.

I want to fuck you like an animal
I want to feel you from the inside
I want to fuck you like an animal
My whole existence is flawed
You get me closer to god

Oh, Daemien. I can't even explain what goes on in my mind when that boy touches me. My entire body fills with want and need. It's been so long since we've felt each other’s touch. Too long. I don't think he knows what he does to me. It's like I'm completely powerless under his grip. When we were in the club dancing, I just wanted to have him right there on the dance floor. The urge was nearly unbearable. I love the way he feels when he's on top of me, refusing to let any space come in between our bodies moving in perfect synchronization.

Man, what a lucky boy he is...

Tokyo

Here is what I have to say: if you have never been to Toyko, you are seriously missing out.

I've had SO much fun already, and I haven't even been here for that long. After arriving, my old friend Daemien (who I hadn't seen in forever) picked me up. He took me to my hotel to settle in and then left to do who knows what. The day after, it was obviously a must to go shopping. After my arms were filled with shopping bags, I went back to my hotel room. I took a long bath then got a text from Oman. He wanted to come pick me up. I wasn't ready by the time he got here, of course. I am a girl, you know... I made him wait while I picked an outfit that wasn't entirely appropriate for where we were going. But was he going to tell me? Of course not. He wouldn't tell me where we were going, and I hate surprises. He ended up taking me to Disney Land! I was squealing like a little bitch, I was so excited! I'd never been and I was beyond excited. The dress I picked out to wear, like I said, didn't fit the occasion, but I didn't even care. We were having so much fun. We went on so many rides and each had a snack. I wish I could go there again just to cause more trouble.

I'm really excited that Oman and I are hanging out again. It's been too long since we've seen each other. And damn, that boy is looking good. I can't help but bite my lip whenever he licks his lips or puts his hands on me. It doesn't help that we both have the same exact mindsets. Guess we'll see what happens with that...

Well, people, it's 2am and I am off to find a store that sells handcuffs. Be prepared for anything, right?

Leice

As one chapter ends, a new one begins

The lovely Volturi members have made it clear that everyone (excluding the infamous Cullen's, of course) must give up their residence in Seattle. Lucky for me, I move around a lot. It was only a matter of time before I picked up and moved along. It's a little disheartening not saying goodbye to the place I've lived for the past 5 years or so, and my damn motorcycle. But alas, I am about to board the plane to Tokyo to meet up with an old friend and cause some trouble out there. And I'm quite positive I'll manage to get ahold of a new bike.

This is really going to test my patience. And my ability to fly for a long time without going ape-shit and killing everybody on the damn plane. I'll let you all know how I make out ;)

Good luck fellow ex-Seattlites,
Leice