Almost Dead

Don't you just love when you come close to perishing forever? It's a great fucking time, wouldn't you agree? I don't even remember how it happened. I went on a trip to New Jersey (don't ask) with Dae because he asked me to accompany him. Long story short, the States got boring, fast. What a surprise... After blowing a couple of credit cards in New York City, I decided it was time to move on. Yup, that's why I decided to leave. It's not like Daemien came dangerously close to killing me with his bare hands or anything like that... Nope. (Fucker)

Anyways, I made it to Barcelona and met up with Thanh and her sister, Mai. I took her for her first hunt in the city and she had a bitch fit because we had to kill a little girl. It had to be done, though... She saw Mai going ape shit on some guy's ass. Whatever. She'll learn how to put those feelings aside and just eat. Unless she plans on becoming a VETA.... Gag.

In other news...
Don't you hate it when people sit around, bummed out, because of some guy? This is why I don't do relationships. I don't want someone telling me that I'm not good enough, or that they don't love me anymore. I don't get involved with that shit. Thanh, on the other hand, made that mistake. She cheated on Felix and now he's being a dick about it. She's a mess. Well, she was. Mai and I helped her out. At least, her appearance. I can tell she's still upset, though. I don't know how much longer I can be around her before I just kill this entire city.

This is why I don't allow my emotions to escape my mind. This is why I refuse to think about my old life. I'm beyond sick of my own brain lately. Care to lend me yours? Ugh. It's been so long since I've allowed myself to feel such deep emotions. Decades. It was a rare occasion that I allowed my family to fuck with my emotions. I guess I've always been adding to the wall that I built as a human; the wall that continually blocks myself off from emotion.

I left New York City a short while ago, ready to embark on a new adventure. After hours of not paying attention to the road, I passed a sign for none other than Georgia - the place I grew up. I suppose I shouldn't call it my homestate, for it never really felt like home to me. But there I was. I felt mesmerized by my surroundings. I knew I'd regret going to my old town, but I needed to. I figured it might be like therapy for me. I haven't been back since I started my new life.

I didn't know what to expect when I drove down the empty, overgrown road. Maybe they would be there, maybe they wouldn't. I pulled into the driveway and just sat there, and of course I was freaking out on the inside. When I walked inside, it was almost like nothing had changed. I mean, everything imaginable had changed, but the house still looked the same. My parents left most of the furniture there when they left, I suppose. Who knows where they went. Anyways, when I walked up the stairs and into my old room, I just brokedown. I sat on my old bed wishing I could actually cry for once. I don't know what happened, but it sucked. I haven't felt emotions like that since... ever. Well, whatever. Enough of this complaining. It's not like it ever gets you anywhere. I'm putting my wall back up and I don't intend on letting myself slip again.

Shocking

As I sit here in my hotel room writing this, I am surrounded by burned out candles and freaking roses. I guess I should start from the beginning so you all have a clue as to what I'm talking about.

Thanh knew I was in causing trouble in Tokyo and decided to come visit me for a little bit. It's never boring with Thanh. Thank god for that girl! We walked around the city, shopping and taking in all the sights. We were running out of things to do, so she suggested we go check out the Imperial Palace. We saw two guards standing outside and took them both out. We snuck into the palace because Thanh was convinced they were hiding something. Upon opening the first door, all we saw was cleaning supplies. We hit gold after opening the second door. Freaking electric chairs! We couldn't believe it. We started messing around with the switches to see what would happen. I decided I wanted to give it a whirl. After we sort of figured out which buttons did what, I sat down on a chair, ready to face whatever would happen. Thanh started out on the lowest switch and ended on the second to last one. Let's just say... I sure as hell felt it. Of all the crazy shit I've done, this definitely makes the Top 10. It started out kind of cool as I felt a buzz run through my entire body. By the end, man, it got to me. Shit actually hurt! She filmed everything with her cell phone and sent it to Marek, who loves doing shit like this I guess. With all of the excitement, Thanh and I completely lost track of time. We had to steal a bike and speed over to the airport so she would catch her flight. As I left the airport, I noticed how insanely thirsty I was. I caught a tasty meal before heading back to my hotel.

As soon as I got into the elevator of the hotel, I could smell him. The scent was faint, but definitely there. I knew it couldn't have been that strong from the last time he came over, so I thought he was in my room for some reason. I pushed open the door and just froze. There were candles everywhere, accompanied by roses. I looked around my entire suite to find him. I was sure he was there. Instead, I found a note on the table that read "sorry shit happened i'll talk to you later hope you enjoy." Regardless of the fact that he left before I got there, that's the nicest thing anyone has done for me in such a long time. He hasn't texted me back yet, but I feel like I should apologize for being a stubborn ass before. I never apologize... I really think that electric chair fucked with my brain. Should be interesting.

Caution:

It's highly likely that we will break ever piece of furniture in the room.

I want to fuck you like an animal
I want to feel you from the inside
I want to fuck you like an animal
My whole existence is flawed
You get me closer to god

Oh, Daemien. I can't even explain what goes on in my mind when that boy touches me. My entire body fills with want and need. It's been so long since we've felt each other’s touch. Too long. I don't think he knows what he does to me. It's like I'm completely powerless under his grip. When we were in the club dancing, I just wanted to have him right there on the dance floor. The urge was nearly unbearable. I love the way he feels when he's on top of me, refusing to let any space come in between our bodies moving in perfect synchronization.

Man, what a lucky boy he is...

Tokyo

Here is what I have to say: if you have never been to Toyko, you are seriously missing out.

I've had SO much fun already, and I haven't even been here for that long. After arriving, my old friend Daemien (who I hadn't seen in forever) picked me up. He took me to my hotel to settle in and then left to do who knows what. The day after, it was obviously a must to go shopping. After my arms were filled with shopping bags, I went back to my hotel room. I took a long bath then got a text from Oman. He wanted to come pick me up. I wasn't ready by the time he got here, of course. I am a girl, you know... I made him wait while I picked an outfit that wasn't entirely appropriate for where we were going. But was he going to tell me? Of course not. He wouldn't tell me where we were going, and I hate surprises. He ended up taking me to Disney Land! I was squealing like a little bitch, I was so excited! I'd never been and I was beyond excited. The dress I picked out to wear, like I said, didn't fit the occasion, but I didn't even care. We were having so much fun. We went on so many rides and each had a snack. I wish I could go there again just to cause more trouble.

I'm really excited that Oman and I are hanging out again. It's been too long since we've seen each other. And damn, that boy is looking good. I can't help but bite my lip whenever he licks his lips or puts his hands on me. It doesn't help that we both have the same exact mindsets. Guess we'll see what happens with that...

Well, people, it's 2am and I am off to find a store that sells handcuffs. Be prepared for anything, right?

Leice

As one chapter ends, a new one begins

The lovely Volturi members have made it clear that everyone (excluding the infamous Cullen's, of course) must give up their residence in Seattle. Lucky for me, I move around a lot. It was only a matter of time before I picked up and moved along. It's a little disheartening not saying goodbye to the place I've lived for the past 5 years or so, and my damn motorcycle. But alas, I am about to board the plane to Tokyo to meet up with an old friend and cause some trouble out there. And I'm quite positive I'll manage to get ahold of a new bike.

This is really going to test my patience. And my ability to fly for a long time without going ape-shit and killing everybody on the damn plane. I'll let you all know how I make out ;)

Good luck fellow ex-Seattlites,
Leice

You just get numb

I'm so sick of all the lovey-dovey shit I've been hearing lately. Everyone's hooking up and falling in love -- and here I am, sitting in a hotel room all by myself. I might as well just sit in here until I rot away. Is that possible? Nobody wants to be alone. Ever since I left Joey, I've wanted nothing but to go look for him. As much as I'll deny it, I hate being solo every moment of this hellish eternity. A girl can't be alone forever.

Time for my night in shining armor to come and sweep me off my feet...
I think he's gotten lost.

Hate,
Leice

Unbelieveable

Taking time off from driving. It's been... 12 hours of driving or so. I don't even know where the hell I am anymore. I'm headed south, and not looking back for a while. I think by now I'm in Mexico, I haven't been paying attention. My GPS was yelling at me, so I threw it out the window an hour into the ride.

Let's rewind, shall we? Last night I was in a horribly angry mood, who the hell knows why. I decided to get all of my steam out at one of Seattle's clubs, Contour. Dancing always helps rid me of my anger. After finding a semi-decent dance partner, we slipped out the door and I drained him behind the club. He was delicious, which lightened my mood further. Upon returning to the dance floor, I found myself a new partner, just as decent.

Well, you could see my good mood has since been horrible. 10 minutes into dancing, I get that awful smell suck in my nose again. I wish I could have been sleeping, dreaming. I started to panic - I was alone, and there was a damn wolf in the club. They should really stick to running around in the woods and staying out of Seattle. Anyways, I scanned the crowd and didn't see the guys that we ran into at the other club. I went to sit at the bar to try and clear my mind; I'd already started shaking in both anger and fear. Then some girl who smelt like she'd hung around pups approached me, asking if she knew me. I froze, and denied knowing her. Then one of the pup's girlfriends said she remembered me from the other night. I knew it was time to book it. It was only a matter of time before the pups came after me. I ran out of the club and went home, packed my shit in a bag, and just started driving.

So, of course it's my fault. I was the one who was by myself, trying to enjoy a nice night in the club. Who knew I'd run into them. You think after last time, they'd steer clear of this city. Whatever, I don't wish to get torn apart by some chick's beast of a boyfriend. Which brings me here, in Mexico - possibly Arizona. /Sighs/ I guess I'll write again when I have a better internet connection, or when I figure out what the hell I'm going to do now that I'm here.

xoxo,
Leice

Eternity can suck it

Ugh. Seems as though I wish to stay angry at the world. I wish life had a rewind button. Then again, that means I'd have to spend that much longer of eternity fucking up. So not my day...

I took out my new sports bike for a ride. It handles better than a guy who actually knows what the hell he's doing in bed. Speeding always makes me feel better. It clears my mind because, honestly, who can think while they're going 90 miles per hour?

Let's hope this horrible mood goes away, and fast. Maybe I'll just leave Seattle earlier than I have planned and start heading south on my bike or something. Who needs luggage, I've got a credit card. I'll just buy new shit when I get down there. Sounds like a plan. Perhaps I'll just leave soon.

Interesting fucking night

So I finally was able to meet my new favorite person, Thanh. That girl is so much fun. She came to the states with her friend Mary, so we decided to meet up. After finding then proceeding to drain the finest men in Seattle, we decided to go clubbing. What better way to satisfy our need for some fun?

I always get in to the absolute best clubs in Seattle, so I figured we'd head over to Immortal Sin. No more than five seconds after we step through the door, this awful smell entraps my head, causing venom to start burning my throat. It was by far the most horrible smell I've ever encountered. I look around to see what the hell it's coming from, and then I see them -- Paul and his new fiance, /rolls eyes/ Rachel. A fucking... shapeshifter... in MY club? My first thought: I had no idea they allowed dogs in here. Anger seeped through my entire body. I walked over there with Thanh and Mary following, ready to attack him. Words were exchanged, and we were all so worked up. I'm surprised we all didn't kill each other. The damn kid almost wolfed in front of the entire club. Thanh and I decided to taunt his little girlfriend, Rachel, then made up some bull about how we dated. That one was Thanh's idea, /laughs/. But in all seriousness, I was so angered by what he was saying. If I could have morphed into some kind of huge beast, I would have after 2 minutes. And then he calls some other members of the damn pack. We were BEYOND pissed off at this point. They kept asking if we wanted to take it to the street, dumbasses.

Well, we ended up leaving. Thanh made me realize that it'd take forever to wash the fucking smell out of our hair. We left shortly after they made their girlfriends leave, as if they'd already planned an attack. I sure as hell wasn't going to get my new clothes ripped to shreds while I kicked doggy ass. We could have called for some backup, but they're not even worth it.

Anyways, I woke up this morning feeling awfully regretful about the previous night. I'd put my two new friends in horrible danger, myself as well. I came to the realization that Paul was still incredibly worked up over what happened, and that he and one of the other pups were going to try to follow my scent and kill me.

I am... terrified. This is an emotion I haven't felt in decades. I definitely never want to run into any of them ever again if I can help it. So, I've decided I'm going to stay with a friend I know, somewhere down south. I can't stay here if they're all going to be on high alert. Fuck that. I'm in need of a vacation, anyways.

This day has been so exhausting. I wish I could just fade into unconsciousness. I almost want to go over to their stupid reservation just so they'll kill me. I feel like shit. I've been moping around all day. On the plus side, I went shopping with Angela. But that only furthered my depressed mood once she dropped me off at home.

Alas, I am now sitting in my apartment accompanied by dozens of lit candles, sulking. I think I'm going to leave in a few days. I guess now it's time to take another bath. This smell really lingers, damn.

Hope you're all having a better day than I am,
Leice

Here I am

So I got this because.. well, I've been seeing an awful lot of sun lately, and I've been stuck inside being annoyed. Though sometimes I enjoy the look on people's faces when they see a sparkling face now and then... So today I went shopping, oh shopping. My specialty. I, ahem, *found* someone's credit card, and lucky for me, they were loaded. I bought some hot new dresses, so maybe I'll drag someone along for a night out with me soon.

Well that's all I have to say right now. Come back soon, maybe I'll share a juicy story tomorrow ;)